I think the reason why idk how to express myself is i'm afraid that people will detest me and leaving me alone . I'm afraid that people will leaving me alone is because i hate to be alone , lonely ! i love to talk alot .I love to make friends wif people. I personally think that having friends in your life, you will feel secure , and good friends will not leave you alone . Friends can lend u listening ear and solve problems tgt wif you . i wan friends that are like that never once betray each other and will nvr abandon you when they met new friends ..